Yup... I'm fixing to leave the country tomorrow and I can't even begin to place how I'm feeling. At 9 am I'll be taking a flight out of here to Fukuoka, Japan with two pit stops along the way in Detroit and Seoul, South Korea. @_____@

Emotionally, these past few months it's like I've been on a near infinite number of rides on the 'SUPERMAN' from SixFlags. I'm excited on minute, sad the next, stressed out and want to murder someone another, and it just goes on and on... However these two days before I've... been strangely calm. I suppose it's because I have tasks to perform in getting to Japan so I can focus and concentrate on that; it's then when I get to Fukuoka that I can go and collapse into a sobbing mess in my dorm room.

I'm living a dream of mine, but I also can't help but think of the implications of doing this. I really am going to be living on my own for the first time and in this case I will largely have to rely on myself. Of course there will be people to help me, but none of the people I've grown up looking to and rely on for help. Growing up... It's something I crave and am utterly terrified of. Somehow in choosing to do this I feel I'm launching myself from the nest with the hope that I will figure out what the hell I'm going to do with myself. Well, at least no one can claim I do things half way.

I think the hardest part is when I have to say goodbye to my parents. I love my parents and I do have to give them a big hand for being so supportive of me through all this. I know that they just want me to be happy with whatever I choose to do and that makes it all the harder to say goodbye to them. Have they been perfect? No. No parents are, but I can only hope that when I do have kids that I'll be at least as half as good as they have been to me. When the waterworks come tomorrow they will come HARD.

But I don't regret what I'm doing, not a bit. Here's hoping my stay will yield a few of the answers I'm looking for. :3

What I will regret is the jetlag I'm sure to get. -___-

As some of you have noticed, IIIIIIIIII haven't been posting much art here, lately. Unfortunately I attribute that to how stressed out I've been. BUT! I do have a couple of pictures in the works; one of which involves a very naked man~ I'm sure that made most of you happy!

I'm also thinking about moving to a new DevArt name... I made this account back in high school and I think it's time for a change.

I'm also thinking about starting a vlog so we'll see how that goes, I do have a camera so I might be taking some video of me while I'm traveling. That way I'll have someone to bitch to about how tired I am! 8D

-Moose